sayu.....

2 am.. dah nak raya.. huhuhu... packed everything.. tapi rasa sayu.. why??

kakak takde.. abang balik lambat.. kanda is not my husband(YET...)... yang tinggal...

mama, abah, me, aiman, bibik.... GILE SUNYI!!!!!... Now i understand... its true.. beli la ape pun, buat la ape pun... when u have no one to share it with... its super boredom... miss the old times.. banyak gaduh pun.. the family is complete.. now...

sob....

heheee.... but then.. at least we r not fighting.. or in a crisis.. basically.. everyone is here.. just very far away.. n we're all in peace, safe and happy with each other.. we r a complete family.. just not able to be shown in pictures.. look at da brite side... kakak dah preggers.. abang is doing very well, rezeki mama abah.. alhamdulillah.. me?? im in love with my kanda... and finally.. i can smile with all my heart and my emotions are back to normal.. no more PMS 24/7... yeay!!

the best thing about raya is shopping.. i dapat kasut.. baju n stuff i want.. but when u really think of it.. its loveliest when ur with ur family spending a simple day together.. teman mama shopping.. pilih barang with mama... buka pose as a family...buying kuih for buka pose.. these simple little things.. when u achieve it.. u just feel content and happy seeing the people around u appreciate wateva u provide....

time kat hostel.. haha!! best gak.. masak tomyam.. sup.. brahims.. nasi.. telur dadar.. waaaaa.. makan reramai.... it was beautiful... i miss my frens.. i ngah jiwang ntah nape.. haha!!

anyway.. i need sleep.. esok nak balik kampung.. nak ubat mama.. mama sakit.. i have less than 3 hours.. n i rindu pada owang itu.. hampes..

i know no one exactly knows my blog link yet... but.. oh well..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI... MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN...

kanda.. if ur reading this.. i maybe on my way to kedah... miss me lots!! heheee... thank u for saving my soul babe... sayang awak tau.. take care...

a time to kill

huyoo....

rajinnye saya memblogging.. this is funny.. usually i will blog everyday.. and then.. this thing will a show space for i will just leave it to rest on piece.. please.. i wanna appreciate ict.. (not to mention learn more and be a bit more 'celik') haha!!!..... see.. what globalisation has done to us.... we have to be really up to date.. or ur just a sore loser who knows nothing thats up to date.. or wat's in trend..
i have to say... the americans are smart..

for manipulating us to succum to the so called almighty internet.. almighty alrite.. it affects not only a person but the sovereignity of a country as well.. here goes the politics.. haha!!

confess

its me.. confessing.. im in love.. yes.. again.. after 2 years of falling out of love.. feeling cam takkan kawin sampai mati... akhirnye.. im in love... and this time.. its wonderful.. oh so lovely.. huhuhu..

revealing the person.. mohd zamri bin fadzilan adzhar.. panggil. am.. or zam.. me??
he is my kanda.. im his dinda (gedik kan!!!!).. but we call each other saya awak laaaa... coz i wanna take this very very very very slowly.... obviously.. fahmi had made me break into pieces until it got so hard to get back on my feet and be able to run again.. so.. im not gonna make the same mistake again.. n i will try not to cry anymore...


so there.. da pic..kanda dinda.. wahahhahaa... how did we meet??

he is 19.. im 20.. he's a kelantanese... ikbn... sijil..amik landscape.. and lives in nilai.. me.. like i said.. 20, degree... ukm.. political science.. putrajaya..

jauh beza kan??? how did God actually made these two found love??? simple.. YM

sedang me ym ewan.. ewan kebusy-an.. maka.. am sembang bagi mengganti ewan.. berkenalan hampir 1/2 tahun.. we decided to text each other.. fell in love.. met each other.. fell harder.. n now.. huhuhu..

our pic.. on our first meet.. edited of coz


still.. life may be sweet now.. i hope it gets sweeter.. but yea.. the road may be rocky.. but its a risk im willing to take.. he is da sweetest guy.. yet mature.. he advises me when im stupidly crazy yet annoying.. and i do the same.. both are terencat in a way.. and both can handle each other despite the complexness of both weird personalities.. dats the beauty of us..

downside?? he has a girlfriend.. damn!! but then.. we're frens.. and taking it slowly.. my explanation my be illogical.. but.. its the only way.. i dont wanna explain.. coz its another whole lot of story..

complicated relationships.. INTERESTING TO KEEP UP WITH.. NOT INTERESTING TO LIVE WITH.. but both of us are fine.. and we hold on to each other like other people would..

so far.. ive shown all my flaws.. and yes.. he has accepted me for who i am.. may this would not be temporary.. n may he loves me for who i am.. n may we work hard.. for a better future.. pray....

love n men = ajinamoto dalam soup

gaduh...

sape suke gaduh kan

sape suke emo kan

sape suke jiwang karat

damn....

i dont even have a boyfren

yet this love thing sucks!!!.. it really does.. when its sweet.. u float.. u smile... u get happy...

when it sucks... u cant breathe.. ur heartbeat races like HELL.. and u just get into a bad mood..

OH GAWD!!! hahahahaha.. adoi ai....

lelaki.... love... the two drugs we are just addicted to.. and cant let go.. it just so refreshing.. yet somehow makes u crazy and do stupid things.. not to mention great lenghts.. just for the sake of these two little brats...

well... thats wat they say.. life is bittersweet.. oxyMORON.. hahaha

life is the soup.. love.. men.. the ajinamoto.. kalau takde pun takpe.. its still a soup..nutritious and filling and all.. just sucky.. tak sedap kot!!

tapi kalau ade.. just put a bit n yeah!!! sedap gile!! and u want more.. so lagi banyak.. lagi umph!!...

but when u have too much.. it gets sucky again.. n u may wanna think again why go with ajinamoto in the first place.. bukan takle survive makan soup gitu je..

like i said... ajinamoto itu penting dalam soup.. just like love n men in life..

DAMN.. HATE THAT I LOVE U..

haaa.. kan dah kate... jiwannnng.....

1st entry.. OMG

haha.. ok.. here goes.. the pembukaan of my first blog. kinda funny actually. neve wanted to write blogs.. its kinda my believe to not write blogs... coz i never believed in publishing ur daily life on the internet for everyone.. and i mean EVERYONE to know wat happens to u from time to time.. but bile tengok mama blogging.. cam best la pulak.. n bile dah stat baca kakak nye blog.. it seems kinda nice to actually keep up with a person.. u kinda still feel that u have not lost touch.. well.. my views anyway..

i wanna write blogs.. bcoz i find myself wanting to say about something everyday.. to give my views.. and so dat whoever listen would just shut up.. and not say a word.. haha!!

so.. i find the usage of blogs somewhat rather useful for people.. the other brite side for me: english improvement. yes, its been a VERY LONG LOOOOONNG TIME since i have been writing in english.. and yeah..

THIS FEELS GOOD!!!!

HAHA!! maka... anda telah melihat kejakunan ku tentang encik blog yang baru hadir menemani hidupku yang lara ini.. oleh yang demikian...

its already up to me now.. to get used to this thing.. n blaja how to make this thing fun n funner!!.. yeay!!