i need you

im trying to breathe now... and it is not easy....

why am i trying to breathe? literally and factually...

factually.. the athma within me is coming back to haunt me.. and it hurts..

literally... heartbreak makes your breathing harder for some reason..

yes, i'm heartbroken again for the fifth time.. and i wonder will these beautiful things ever come back..

im holding back from crying.. exams are here.. need to focus on what is important..

im holding back from giving up in life.. also because of exams...

basically im hurting.. so much...

and i hate this part right here...

so many things to ponder about.. yet so many things to burst through with the willpower and courage given by the creation of the Almighty...

at the same time people never realise all these is happening inside a person.. for eyes only shine sorrrowness.. but is able to be covered with smiles and laughters...

im smiling...

im a good girl....

i'll make it through...

and i will look back and smile wider...

for learning from my mistakes...

ps: i love you